gunslinger extraordinaire

be careful.

2008-12-03T20:44:00.004+08:00

IM SO SORRY FOR MY LACK OF UPDATING!
haha.
busy making the bucks.
SORRRYYYYYYYY.
haha.
cant wait for the day.
cos i will spend for many things!

currently watching bleach.
but watched the opening then paused.
cos i saw a new movie coming.
& my jaw dropped.
haha.
so i must catch my breath now.

anw,
i just saw something that made me sick to my stomach.
god.
its just goes to show.
how a person can be sooooooo two-faced.
you'll be surprised.
but im not gonna say anything.
im not going to apologise if i do anything.
cos i can be quite a bitch.

anyway,
my birthday was fun(:

thanks for all the wishes lovelys.
miss all very much.
& thank god for cigarettes & alcohol.
& thank god that she doesnt have stds.
(I HOPE.)

AIDA CHEW!

2008-11-25T21:07:00.002+08:00

miss you, aida chew!):

emailing sucks right now.
so i'll just tell you everything when you get back k!(:
FASTER COME BACK!
:D

a night to remember!(:

2008-11-15T14:44:00.006+08:00

PROM NIGHT!!!
presenting Miss Martens, our beloved principal who we danced with you know?
:D

LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF THE NIGHT.
:D
more pictures sooooooon(:

the night.

2008-11-12T21:27:00.004+08:00

PROM'S TMR! :D
im glad i have everything alr.
yesssssssssssssssssssss.
cant wait to see everyone!
haha.
im too lazy to edit jay's pics.
therefore no jay today.
have to catch up with my online shows!
haven been at home these few days.
oh well.
tmr's a busy day!

can you feel it now?

2008-11-11T10:21:00.002+08:00

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
o's are fkn oveerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
omgggggg.
like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y OKAY.
i have been waiting for this day ever since before o's started.
believe it or not.
hahahaha.
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
okay.
anyway,
today i gots a lots of things to do.
not very well planned yet,
but im sure i'll be alright!
nothing can spoil my day today!
my mood is bright as day.
WTF RIGHT.
but WHATEVER!
im a free person now.
im gonna go mad.
i dont know what i'll do.
so we'll see what happens today!
:D

zhoujielun.

2008-11-10T21:13:00.004+08:00

omg!
haha.
tmr last paper of O's already!
but still need to plan for prom night & all.
like finally.
i cant fkn wait laaaaa.
:D
anyway,
i'll just scream tmr.
maybe you'll hear me?
haha.
jay's looking hottttt.
okay enough.
off to watch hot shot.
i know im slow.
but whatever.
HAHA.
(:

yea, i am superman.

2008-11-08T22:59:00.005+08:00

now watching hot shot.
:D
what a nice dramedy.
its damn funny.
kinda reminds me of slam dunk.
i have never watched taiwan dramas,
since like romantic princess?
that was like so long ago.
hahaha.
anyway,
next week's gna be so fun!(:

o's endingggggg!
prom night!
work!
$$$!
shopping!
finally free to do whatever i want! :D

yea manzxzszxzxzxzxzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

random but.
i love you, jay!
:D

im your best kept secret.

2008-11-07T14:19:00.009+08:00

lit today was fine!
1hour 30mins flew past.
after the paper,
sue came to my house.
& we watched cry-baby(:
like FINALLY!
someone agrees with me that crybaby is a fantastic show k.
cos like johnny depp's in it.
DUH.
& it hot.
he's like still so young in that show.
& the show's kinda old & retro.
HAHAHA.
then sue left for home.
& she's gonna meet me later.
then im off to my facial!

2 more motherfkn papers & im FREEEEEEEEE!

all I ever think about is you.
you got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.
♥

quantum of solace.

2008-11-06T18:47:00.005+08:00

can may; have permission to.
i used by a speaker in referring to himself or herself
have to hold, possess, or accept
this what is about to follow
dance taking a series of rhythmical steps in time to music
?

tmr's literature!
& o's are ending sooooooon(:
cant wait!

angel/devil.

2008-11-04T22:47:00.005+08:00

watched gossip girl early this afternoon.
loved it(:

be my diguise,
love the devil.
temptation is cruel,
in the form of mirrors.
maliciousness,
redeems the life.

can i have this dance?

2008-11-03T21:23:00.006+08:00

hello all!
here's my beloved best!
right there with the middle finger.
HAHA(:
after exam,
i spent my time at her house.
DAMN FUNNY!!!
we were laughing about nothings & somethings.
ate what her mummy cooked,
rice with (chicken)winggggsssssssssss.
then i kept playing with the waterbabies on her table.
cant help it la.

wanted to see if they have grown, since i was there.
& some of them were huge!
anyway,
after that,
we basically talked. ALOT.
had grapes for snacks.
it was very nice of sue to perform for me.
HAHA.
hilarious.
then her brother also made us laughed,
stomach damn pain!
had much fun!
:D

& you cant keep us apart.
even a thousand miles,
cant keep us apart.
cos my heart is wherever you are.

little toy gun.

2008-10-31T20:46:00.005+08:00

happy halloween!(:

haha,
sadly no time for dress up this year.
watching Saw V now.
interesting(:
4 papers left!
woo.
its friday!
:D

hot shot.

2008-10-30T21:22:00.005+08:00

ahhhhhhh!
o's suck.
like tolly.
HAHA.
its draining the life out of me.
everyday you see me getting more& more tired!
anyways.
finally its over with the mathematics.
onto sciences & humanities & my beloved accounts.
2 more freakin weeks! :D

happy halloween to all(:
love.

mixed

2008-10-24T20:58:00.002+08:00

watched hsm3 today![:

could'nt help myself.
HAHA.
seriously,
it was great!
full house in the cinema today.
13907419875309315 ppl were watching too.
mostly little kids[:
& it was fun.
like so many ppl watch together,
had a lot of laughing moments! :D
ppl were like clapping when the show ended.
HAHAHA!
its a little longer than the tv versions.
but damn drama man!
fkn good movie.
all the songs are freaking nice!
& basically,
there's a lot of prom stuff!
how ironic.
anyway,
how sad that its the end of another trilogy):

okay.
anyway,
off to catch up on shows online.
esp gossip girl k,
im missing out on it cos of O's!
love all!(:

max payne

2008-10-20T15:03:00.004+08:00

watched max payne after studying on saturday!

haha.
the movie damn hot sia.
but basically,
its a movie from a video game.
which is hot.
HAHA.
so today,
im gna be at home for the whole day.
YES!
study for english tmr.
and study for maths as well.
[:

sexy sounds.

2008-10-17T18:47:00.005+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i cant stop listening to one of jay's songs.
im sorry i dunno the title.
HA.
the tune of the song is like fkn sexy sia.
i know this is wrong,
but i seriously cant help it.
he has a fkn hot voice.
the past three days,
i have been tuning in to taiwan radio station,
to hear him sing & talk.
damn nice.
they play all his songs.
HAHA.
;]

okay.
just now,
went to study with aida chew.
quite productive.
did one accounts MCQ & read ss notes.
WOO!
im on my way, man.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIMI RAIKKONEN! :D
YOU'RE 29!!!! ;]

crazy circus.

2008-10-16T18:52:00.004+08:00

yes,
hello all.

DID YOU ALL RECEIVE MISSMARTENS'S LETTER?!
omg.
she damn sweet i tell you.
THE GREATEST PRINCIPAL EVER! :D
haha.
she really very nice eh!
i really want to follow her diet plan!
milo with no sugar!
apples!
cereal or protein bars!(:
hope you all got her letter too! :D
MISSMARTENS!
if you're reading this, HI! :D

today's science practical was WOO!
im glad i was able to do it.
or at least thats what i think OKAY.
haha.
they made us stay in school after our prac from 9:30 to 1:30.
but i fell asleep for the last two hours.
so i guess thats okay :D
HAHA.

then after lunch,
went back to school to study with frazzled & mdm yong.
until 5 then went HOME!

finally!
first paper can slash away.
~~science practical (phy/bio)~~
but no sigh of relief.
its like the first of many many the many more papers to come.
next paper,
english on tuesday.
i will be in school the whole afternoon.
SHIT.

Well, that's just fine.
Say it once, say it twice.
Take a chance and roll the dice.
Ride with the moon in the dead of night.
Don't we love it now?

blow out your candles.

2008-10-15T20:56:00.005+08:00

let me fucking do what i want, you motherfuckers.
suck my dick.
i have no appetite,
are you sure?
you dont even know what i ate just now.
follow my backside wherever i go la.
dont let me go out?
i'll still go out.
as i said,
suck my dick.
even if i dont have one.

wow im pissed.
sorry,
but that was not directed to all you ppl,
but for some ppl[family].
ah whatever la.

finally had starbucks today.
couldnt survive since i had a drink on monday.
HAHA.
jay's new album damn hot sia.

okay,
cant wait till my o's are over.
im just gonna study as hard as possible.
science prac tmr!
gna be in school for a very long time.
OMG.
im so sleepy now.
slept for 4 hours only.
but what to do right.
have to study for awhile.
maybe tmr while waiting to go home,
can SLEEP a bit?!
AH!
like you said,
its gna be so hard to live for the future.
im not sure how i would survive.

mugging.

2008-10-14T14:06:00.004+08:00

I don't want this moment, to ever end.
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble &fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know,
with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart &soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show,
&I won't let go.

cheese.

2008-10-10T18:18:00.003+08:00

okay.
just let me say something.
MSN MESSENGER IS KNNBCCB FUCKING ANNOYING ME NOW!
i cant sign in no matter what
&they keep asking me to try later.
well motherfucks,
i wont try later.
im gonna uninstall you from the rest of my life.
fuck off.

im just angry.
but heck.
today's the last day of school.
how emo.
okay.
im so tired.
now i have to be a maid to my mother.
&do chores.
if only can do chores for o levels.
i sure pass one.

danger

2008-10-09T17:15:00.004+08:00

hey all.
never go to school today.
fairly lazy.
HAHA.
anyway.
im pretty lazy to update my blog these days too.
tsk.
tmr last day of school!
omg.
so fast eh.
:\

anyway,
im off to study now.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KOJI!! :D

love declaration.

2008-10-05T21:37:00.005+08:00

hello all.
im going to be very serious now.
okay.
im going to have a dog.
well not now.
but soon.
im gonna love it with all my heart & soul.
if its a boy, i'll love it.
if its a girl, i'll turn lesbian for it.
i'll take it wherever i go if i could.
i'll eat with it, sleep with it.
pick up its shit & all.
okay i think you already get what i mean.

just now went to have a look.

japanese spitz.

my dad liked this one.
i kinda did too.
but still unsure.

then we saw a red miniature poodle.

I SO WANTED THIS ONE.
but it was already sold):

then we saw a pomeranian!

my neighbour's dog la.
i scared they say i copycat.
HAHA, but nevertheless,
damn fucking cute.

lastly, the wirehaired dachshund.

gawd.
im so tempted.
i love their short legs.
my mom had one when she was young.
so i kinda want one too.
):

sadly,
all these cute ones have to wait.
cos im taking exams soon!):
& i only ~~have to~~ CAN choose one.
tsk.
choices suck.

toxic.

2008-10-04T22:23:00.003+08:00

watching grey's anatomy now.
catching up with it cos i stopped watching for quite awhile now.
okay.
back to the show.

It's getting late, to give you up.
I took a sip, from my devil's cup.
Slowly, it's taking over me.

hot&heavy.

2008-10-02T21:12:00.007+08:00

hello all.
i didnt go to school today.
haha.
so glad tmr's friday.
okay anyway,
i dont have much to say.
im pretty happy.
just have to study as much as i can now.

neverfailtoamazeme.
withwhatyoucandotome.
imatyourmercy.
whisperinmyear,
allthethingsiwannahear.
whathappensbetweenus.
nooneshalleverknow.
makeithotandheavy.
withalittlesweaty.
ohthedesiredwhiteflame.
therearesomethings,
noneofuscancontrol.

joe-licious/picture-rific

2008-09-30T21:22:00.016+08:00

hello all;
today's the second day that many ppl never come to school.
all holiday mood right.
HAHAHAHA,
okay la.
at least lisa & suz came.
but suz, that bastard.
she went off from school at 10am right,
cos all my mly friends got privilege today.
but she was the only mly girl in my class today.
then you know what?
after school,
me & zx saw her at parkway with her sister eating.
EATING.
so much for fasting ya, dear?
HAHAHAHA.

OKAY RANDOM PICTURES NOW.
cos i still have F1 fever.
so here you go.
kimi raikkonen & lewis hamilton :D

so, as i promised,
im gonna blog about joe jonas for lisa.
here is something she wants to declare.
please read(:

fierce right.
& lisa,
this picture for you(:

okay then.
just MORE random pictures i took today(:

off to watch the long awaited gossip girl episode 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going crazy.
need my weekly dose.
k love.

scarlet letter

2008-09-29T17:51:00.002+08:00

im printing bio notes now.
so i decided to update as well(:
few people came to school today.
im glad school finishes earlier now.
few things frustated me at school today.
dont know why some can be so petty for no reason.
anyhoo. WHATEVER K.

19 days to O levels.
im really starting to be scared.
that i can just cry.
teachers are at a point of being so desperate
that they are really scaring us with all their talk.
im not being exaggerating or anything.
i just wish i dont have to grow up.
being young was much simpler.
emotions were tolerable.
didnt have to care about anything in the whole wide world.

now everything's just messy & stressful.
i really hate accounts & physics.
yes, how honest right?
but im going to try my best to pass it now.
cos i need science for the course i wanna get into.
&you know what?
i just need to pass as many as possible.
so that i'll have more options.

so im all on now.
i know its a little late.
but its never too late.
i hope i can make it.
i want to.

electric feel.

2008-09-27T12:46:00.004+08:00

went to see the F1 yesterday night at marina sq.
it was hot shit, i swear.
the sounds from the cars were really loud.
sparks flying, crashing. screeching sounds.
damn crowded & exciting.
cant wait to see the races today & tmr.
(:
im really tired today.
so sleepy.
gosh.

hope i'll get to go out later at night.
or not.
HAHA.
have to study!
sheesh.

meester.

2008-09-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

holy mama.
im speechless.
today was a rather sleepy day.
bad day for maths.
i fell asleep during maths lesson.
& maths mock exam after school was rather useless.
then went for my facial.
then to home.
most of the day already gone.

SUZLYNNN!!
sorry i made you cry today dear.
your fear of rubberbands is just very funny.
HAHA.
i hope you still love me!
(:

tmr's friday!

turn it up, its five minutes to midnight.

2008-09-24T18:07:00.005+08:00

never go to school today!
ORH HOR.
:\
sick la.

[sick of school.]

crybaby

2008-09-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO ALL.
today was phototaking day.
& my friend is in love.
its gna be a short post.
the noose is on.
& im interested in fake news instead of the real 9:30 news.
HAHAHA.
alright anyway,
just to let all know,
LINDSAY LOHAN confirmed her relationship with SAM RONSON.
YAY!

thats like super sweet(:
alright.
much love all<3

paperbags & plastic hearts

2008-09-22T20:24:00.009+08:00

hello all.
im here to upload many many the many pictures!
first is for grad day!

sue, in the process of getting ready(:

WHILE WAITING TO PROCEED TO THE HALL.
WE WAITED AT THE FESTIVAL COURT.
BOY WAS IT COLD.

the stuff we got(:

and the touching message from mrs yong to our class(:

lots of fun during english lesson!(:

WE HAD THIS WORD IN OUR PRELIMS FOR ENGLISH COMPRE.
PLEASE TELL ME YOU KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE?! :D

you change your mind like a girl changes clothes.

2008-09-19T15:09:00.015+08:00

hey all!
thanks for tagging & making my blog alive again(:
love you all so so much!

WANT TO BUY A CRISTIANO RONALDO CALENDAR?

HAHA. 365 days of him.
how hot is that?
its just for $20.60! :D

k anyway,
today school was damn fun!
laugh so much during youth mission!(:
& i wrote a letter to my mom,
which im gonna give to her later when she comes home.
so sad i didnt turn up for the first day of youth mission,
which was yesterday, because i pon school.
OOPS.

k, picture time!
went to the airport to study with jessie yesterday!

as you can tell,
it wasn't very effective.
i studied a bit of lit and maths,
while she tried to study her JC maths.
her calculator damn cool la.
can draw graphs & type out words.
then i got so bored.
so i ended up playing her yellow psp,
& she wrote letters to teachers who she missed badly.

after some hours at the airport,
went to meet aida & zara at simei starbucks.
HAHA! i finally saw that person!

then aida & jessie started to fight again.
because of a certain situation they are in.
HAHAHA.
so this is jessie's revenge.

she got pregnant from a one night stand.
HAHAAAHA!!!!!

jessie was damn heartbroken by aida.
she said aida is the hole in her heart.
AWWWWWWW :D
& when aida heard that,
she told jessie, "you are the dent in my heart."
therefore, now we all know that aida has a metal heart.
HAHAHA!(:

k then after awhile,
me & jessie cabbed to parkway.
& we went to borders.
because she wanted to buy stuff.

after spending a long time there,
while waiting for jessie to decide on her pencilcase,
i roamed & saw these nice postcards.
damn cool.

lastly,

HAHA!(:
tried to do names with the heart pen thingy,
but i failed badly.
hahaha.

well,
tmr's GRAD DAY!
& there's like millions of last minute things to do.
GOD.
still thinking if i should bring along a shawl to wrap myself in.
because there are RULES. sheesh. how lame ah.
& later i still have to get last minute stuff.
& tmr must wake up early to get ready.
wish it was grad night instead of grad DAY LAH.
but no complaints.
no pain, no gain.
but then again,
mixed feelings about when im leaving this school.
:\

thats all for now.
much love to all(:

hot and cold.

2008-09-16T17:13:00.016+08:00

hello loved ones(:
today was like an okay day at school.
super slack & so many people never come.
best ah.
hahaha.
sue, suz, aida & me had fun gossiping today :B

TO MY DEAREST DARLING!!(you knw who you are[:)
CHEER UP!
things will be fine.
people like that are just the biggest assholes of the world.
you're better off!!!
HAHA.
but who am i to judge right.
be happy!
dont emo anymore k.
chocolate that you took is like to brighten your day la.
so dont emo already.
HAHAHA(:

okay then.
i have pictures of my three dearest crazy friends!♥♥♥

had so much fun taking pictures for you guys!(:
we were like singing songs, taking pictures and stuff.
funny la.

okay!
hahahaha.
now after that,
lets play a game of;
GUESS WHO!? :D

alrighty!
guess who's THIS!

hahaha(:
model in the making okay.
hot right :D

okay.
now on to the next thingy.
miley cyrus has a new boyfriend.
OMGGGGGGGGGG.
jealous okay.
like wth.
she has a hot underwear model boyfriend.
so much for wearing purity ringsssssssssssss.
anyway,
here are the somewhat obscene pictures.
btw. while she's 15, he's 20.
HELLO?!?!?! UNDERAGE!?
anyway, just for your viewing pleasure.

pictures courtesy of pinkisthenewblog.com(:

okay omfg.
i just feel so sinful looking at his pictures.
Justin Gaston's just too disgustingly hot.
such a sinner i am.
he was in taylor swift's "love story" music vid, btw.
feast your eyes on those, ladies :DDDDD

okay im done.
if you wanna see more of his hotness, click HERE!
HAHAHAHA.
shall not be a perv much longer.
gossip girl ep 3 is very tempting.
been waiting to watch it for very long already.
so BYE!
love all(:

love lockdown.

2008-09-15T15:06:00.006+08:00

OMG! prelims are over today.
and on to my scariest NIGHTMARE!
the o's are coming.
like some scary mutated breakfast cereal.
time to study!!
even harder still.
i was so slack for the prelims.
bet the results will be great.(wtf.)
BUT FIRST,
GRAD DAY!!!!!
hahahaha.
its on this saturday.
so this week is all BUSY.
great.
got so many stuff to do.
and im still sitting infront of the com.
oh well(:
cant wait to see all you pretty people!

I’m not lovin you, the way I wanted to.
What I had to do, had to run from you.
I’m in love with you, but the vibe is wrong.
&that haunted me, all the way home.
So you'll never know, never never know.
Never know enough, til its over, love.
Til we lose control, system overload.
Screamin no, no, no, no, no.
Im not lovin you, the way I wanted to.
See, I wanna move, but cant escape from you.
So I keep it low, keep a secret code.
So everybody else don’t have to know.

tell me a lie.

2008-09-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

& the boy cried whoopy de dee
There's a woman with a mustache who won't let me be.
Though she was born on a monday,
She's a hundred and four.
"She's a liar, she's a liar" and a little bit more
Say what you wanna, say what you will.
Write your number on my telephone bill.
Walk like a monkey, kick like a mule.
I could be your beggar,
but i'd rather be just as cruel.

the joke is on you.

2008-09-02T14:38:00.003+08:00

im not sure if i do anymore.

hey people[:
i wont blog much anymore.
o's coming so i think i wont have the time.
anyway,
lots of unknown people reading my blog.
so no privacy anymore.
i guess somethings are better left unsaid.
no point for me being bitter.
im just wasting my time.

gossip girl season two's out!
watched the first ep already.
LOVE IT.
now watching grey's anatomy.

im a penny in a diamond mine.

2008-08-08T18:49:00.005+08:00

i cant blame myself for having uncontrollable feelings.
&i now know why it has to be like this.
i loved tuesday.
i loved being so close to you.
i loved how you wipe my tears away.
i loved spending time with you.
i loved the way you treated me like gold.
i loved everything about you.
i'll keep the black topman shirt& your cap.
i'll keep you close.
i'll do whatever.
i'll believe you.
i do.
i love you.

picture perfect.

2008-08-04T14:55:00.003+08:00

i love you,
superfantastically so.

i will love ed westwick no matter what colour shorts/pants he wears(:

superhuman.

2008-07-22T18:01:00.005+08:00

It's not a bird, not a plane,
it's my heart and it's going gone away.
My only weakness is you,
only reason is you,
every minute with you
I feel like I can do,
anything.

dangerous.

2008-07-18T16:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHACE CRAWFORD :D

omg!
new promo pics of season 2 of gossip girl!!!!
im going crazy, i swear.
i cant wait to watch season 2.
:D

oh god oh god.
i love chuck.
chuck, chuck, chuck, chuck.
HAHAHA(:
cant wait!

serial killer.

2008-07-17T18:14:00.004+08:00

im the same person as last time once again.
thats what you said.

how did i become this way in the first place?
do you even know how i feel over here?
all the times that i've waiting just for your message.
for you to call,
all you can tell me now is that i've gone back?
i just think you dont know who i am anymore.
i have changed every inch of myself for you.
i've done all i can for you.
every step i take forward,
i take a hundred steps back.
i really wish i knew why i have to make myself do all this.
you call me stupid, crazy, bitch, whatever you want to call me,
&yet,
i still come back.
why?
i have stop my tears everytime.
its just driving me crazy,
how i just give in to you all the time.
every single conversation we had,
you just hung up and left me in tears.

all the "i love you"s are just left without the "i love you too"s.

im just lost.
i really feel like giving up.
i just have to give in to the fact that,
im not strong anymore.
you just took all that i have in me.
i just wish that you cared more about me.
but you say that im in your way.
i really dont know what you want.
i really dont.
but something in me,
keeps me from staying away from you.

4,579,200 seconds
76,320 minutes
1272 hours
7 weeks
53 days
1 month, 22 days
im still waiting.

with all your faults, i love you still.

2008-07-16T16:35:00.006+08:00

right now,
i guess you dont want to talk to me again.
somehow the way you treat me,
makes me love you more.
its wierd but true.
every night,
when we talk on the phone,
sometimes,
i just wish we had more time.
and sometimes,
its just silence,
but i still treasure all of the moments.

i miss you.
i really do.
you make me happy at times,
but sometimes,
you just do things that really make me feel like shit.
but i still love you.
i cant stop.
im trying my best here,
im letting you know in every way.
spending two days straight with you,
makes me so happy.
so dont stop okay?

please make up your mind.
i want to know.
ily.
no matter what.
i will wait for that little message or phone call.
just to hear your voice.

always.

2008-07-14T21:04:00.004+08:00

why do I do, just as you say,
why must I just,
give you your way.
why do I sigh, why don't I try,
-to forget.
it must have been,
that something lovers call fate.
kept me saying: "I have to wait."
i saw them all, just couldn't fall,
-'til we met.

it had to be you,
it had to be you.

i wandered around,
&finally found,
-the somebody who.
could make me be true,
&could make me be blue
&even be glad,
just to be sad
-thinking of you
some others I've seen,
might never be mean
might never be cross,
or try to be boss,
but they wouldn't do.

for nobody else,
gave me a thrill
-with all your faults,
I love you still.
it had to be you,
wonderful you,
it had to be you.
♥

you know i cant smile without you.

2008-07-13T18:42:00.003+08:00

watch hellboy II with you today(:
omg.
what a great movie.
never thought the bond between twins was so strong.
anyway,
the movie left me loving the song,
"i cant smile without you" by barry manilow.
haha.
just felt so many things today.
thank you for everything.
ily :D

okay, just had to add.
isnt this hamster the cutest?

my hamster used to be like that.
till it became lazy and fat. :D

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you...

true love has no ending.

2008-07-11T15:54:00.004+08:00

When I ate today at noon
All I could think about was you
Wishing you was here to do what you do
Wishing I could feed you with my spoon
Hoping someday I'll see your smile again

I don't know if I can take all this pain
Knowing that I am here and you are there
Thinking about the times we had and will not have

You are the best there ever was and will be
There is nothing to explain you, but lovely
Even when I was sad you made me happy

I just don't know what to do
I just hope one day, I get to see you

i miss you.

there's nothing i truly desire.

2008-07-10T15:10:00.003+08:00

what can i say about you?
you are impeccable.
you can make me happy whenever.
suddenly,
you feel like doing something that upsets me.
you'd still do it.
&i cant stop you no matter what i say.
you will always find a way to win over me.
rather than letting me win these days.
i miss you,
you know that?
you'd say no.
well,
what can i say?
these days,
i dont know what you want anymore.
things keep changing as &when you like.
somedays are okay,
some are not.
&i have to be the one on the swing.

watching a movie called insanitarium now.
jesse metcalfe the lead.
&its insanely good.
its kinda scary that im watching it by myself):
oh well.
horror movies are somewhat funny.
so sadistic right :|

your reflection I've erased, like a thousand burned out yesterdays.

2008-07-09T16:14:00.011+08:00

how would i know if you were laughing at my face right?
but only time will tell.
&we'll see who will be laughing then.

you & me.
we're so alike.
in more ways than one.
however,
opposites attract.
which isnt you & me anymore.

what we talked about yesterday,
you keep talking about me,
what about yourself?
its okay.
just keep saying what you want.
cos you know deep down,
you wanted things to be this way.
thats why you have to keep reminding yourself.
many others want you too.
so dont say that no one wants you.
i bet you already have someone.
no point lying.
but be careful.
you'll never know who's playing you.
if you dont want to tell me,
its alright.
i'll be able to find out anyhow.
singapore's too small a country.
everyone knows everbody else.

i guess you can say that,
i'll cont to love you,
without asking for anything in return.
you'll have to see for yourself.
cos i cant help you anymore.
the more i care for you,
you'd just think that i am planning smth against you.
next time,
i guess you'll look back & see,
that i only did what was meant to be the best for you.

OMG!
who would've thought that i'd enjoy maths tutorial!
but i did.
HAHA.
only me, alili, cassandra and melanie went la.
like four ppl tutorial.
it was great!
i paid attention.
anyway,
today was an okay day in school.
not bad.
im gna study a lot now!
make up for all that lost time.

now reading gossip girl: you know you love me!(:

the kill.

2008-07-08T16:36:00.007+08:00

i didnt know you had it in you really,
selfish, immature.
i really dont know who you are anymore.
i wont hate you of course.
its hard to be constantly angry at someone you know?
maybe thats why you forgave her,
&maybe thats why you left me for her in the first place.
i cant hate you now,
cos i only knew the "you" of the past.
the "you" now, is just a mystery to me.
i dont know who you are any longer.

i dont know anymore.
i feel angry at times, yet sad.
happy whenever i look back,
but still knowing that it wont happen ever again.
its unfair knowing that you're happy somewhere else.
maybe you dont think about me anymore.
but i still do, unintentionally.
it hurts,
but what can i say?
seriously,
everyone is asking me to move on.
its just hard you know?
its not as easy as i thought.
&with the thought of you being happier,
makes it even worst.
everyday,
im just left with utter disappointment from you.

3,801,600 seconds
63,360 minutes
1056 hours
44 days
6 weeks
1 month, 13 days.
i'll never forget.
you did,
didnt you?

its a beautiful lie, a perfect denial.

2008-07-07T16:11:00.003+08:00

Come break me down.
Bury me, bury me.
I am finished with you.
Look in my eyes.
You're killing me, killing me.
All I wanted was you.

everday, i hope to make you a part of my life once again.

2008-07-06T16:01:00.005+08:00

i guess its starting again, isnt it?
i should have known its coming.
but you know i wont give up.
im still waiting.

as seconds pass,
seconds turns into minutes.
as minutes pass,
minutes turn into hours.
as hours pass,
hours turn into days.
as days pass,
days turn into weeks.
as weeks pass,
weeks turn into months.
months to years,
so on and so forth.

i have waited:
3,628,800 seconds,
60,480 minutes,
1008 hours,
42 days,
6 weeks,
1 month, 11 days.
all this,
for you,M.

sorry for the emo.
haha.

FIRSTLY,
to my dearest nurul suhaiza bte manan!
im super duper happy for you la, fucker.
im happy that you found him!
SUCCESS!!!!!
i felt like a naggy grandmother for like pushing you to do what you want.
everyday sia,
maybe you got sick of it!
HAHAHA.
im glad you have someone now!
I LOVE YOU, SUE! :D
i learned smth from you!!
&that is to wait,
to be patient.
and i thats what i'll be doing now.
study hard, (with him looming in the back of my mind!)
seriously,
must pass FUCKING ACCOUNTS, with mdm yong's constant attention.
I CAN DO IT!
WOO.
im motivated.

&i've been reading the gossip girl novels lately.
how nice of taby to let me borrow.
read the first one finish.
now awaiting the second(:
oh gosh,
i just love gossip girl(:

friday nights.

2008-07-04T14:13:00.006+08:00

yesterday,
it was not one of my average days.
just felt soooooooooooo freaking fucked up happy,
that you were talking to me(:
and when you just sung along to songs,
really made me laugh.
i just started thinking of the past.
about last time when you sang,
i fell deeply in love.
now,
im still feeling the same.

ARGHHHH!!
i miss my super-ultra-skinny samsung phone!
it got confiscated!
sigh,
even though its annoying uncool,
i wish it was still here to play the songs that i like.
):
now i only can use a phone that is bluetooth-less and song-less.
how boring.
its like back to the stoneage.
shit la.
another week till i can get it back.
and im selling it off already.
wanna get a new phone(:

everyday,
i tell you that i miss you badly.
and i know what you are trying to do,
when you tell me otherwise.
dont worry.
i'll make it through.
i'll just keep thinking positive.
because that just keeps me going.
(:

today,
you're working long hours again.
i bet it'll be the longest hours ever.
so you must take care of yourself k.
maybe you'll be too tired to talk to me when you get home.
SIGH.
but if you want,
i'll wait up for you.

IMISSYOU,M!♥

believe(:

2008-07-03T14:21:00.006+08:00

okay,
i admit,
maybe i said one too many last night when talking to you.
i just lost myself to how i felt,
&since you wanted to know,
i seriously let you know.
no matter how much i thought that you wont believe me,
i still said it out,
&i meant every single word i said.
i missed you.
&i know that if i msged you that,
you wont believe right?
i know you dont like it when i cry,
who likes it?
no one likes it when someone cries.
but i cried,
cos i really wanted to tell you everything.
&the strain it is causing me to keep it all inside.

i just wish i could see you face to face.
to feel what it feels like to have you by my side once again.
under the trees, beneath the stars,
not caring about the rest of the world,
it was only you &me.
talking about everything, anything.

ily.
not more than a friend,
if that is what you want to believe.
i'll leave it to you.

together

2008-07-02T16:10:00.008+08:00

hahaha.
i shall save money, and you will give me what i want!
our conversation yesterday was hilarious.
and now i cant stop thinking.
what should i do?
nooooooooooooooooo.
okay.
talk somemore la.
but you went to sleep.
ass.
you didnt even go to school.
and now,
its happening again.
i find myself trying my best to let you be happy(:
after sending all the songs to you,
must listen okay.
its like all the songs that just brings me back.

you will die.
im gna killllllll you.
HAHA.
miss you k,bff.

now, i shall get back to watching get smart.
it rocks.

&hitman's timothy olyphant is like, HOT.
its nice to see him with hair,
even though in the show,
he still looked hot being botak.
still hot la.

batman movie coming!
thumbs up to heath ledger,
the hottest joker besides Jack Nicholson(:
the poster hot sia.

cant wait for the movie to come out!(:

I ♥ LEIGHTON MEESTER K.
SHE'S LIKE MY NUMBER ONE IDOL FOR LIFE.
be it her being blair or just being herself,
i still think she fucking pretty(:

BESTFRIENDDDD!!!!!(:

2008-07-01T16:07:00.006+08:00

BESTFRIENDDDD!!!!!(:
omg.
i dont know why.
but i just had to tell you what happened.
and im really happy that you picked up my call.
you know what?
i just missed you a lot.
wish you could be there to help me too.
i know you'll scold them like fuck for me.

they called me "desperate for attention",
seriously,
then who's the one scolding me infront of everyone?
aren't they like seeking attention too?

actually from the start,
i just wished you never ever left me.
i really felt my happiest when i was with you.
why did you have to go?
if i had a choice,
i'd fall in love with you all over again.
but i know thats not possible anymore.
i just miss you a lot.
wonder if you miss me too?
i'll always love you one la k,
my dear bestest friend.(:

these words just made me cry so badly.
sigh.

2008-06-29T14:38:00.002+08:00

you know what?
at the end of the day,
you know that i still miss you so.
i'll just go back to the beginning,
waiting for your msg.
love is patient,
&with god by my side.
i will make it through.

&the water from the rain washes progress away.

2008-06-29T11:11:00.007+08:00

once again,
it seems that the truth had hurt you.
why?
why let it get between the both of us?
you know that its the past.
and there was a certain reason why i did that.
it wasnt even serious,
&its not like i lied to you.
you found out and i admitted.
I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH!
so you'd rather think that i lie,
so as to keep you by my side?
im not like you.
i will not keep things from you.
during that three weeks when i cried so badly,
cos people told me you were with her.
what do you think i did?
taunt you every single day like you doing to me now?
NO RIGHT?!
wtf. seriously.
it just makes me think that you dont want me even more.
&you just wanna toss me aside like a piece of trash.
maybe its because you know that
i love you too much to let you go.
and maybe you're too contented to know that i'll always be back.
i know that you want me back.
but you just keep msging and tell me to (literally) fuck off and dont come back.
why hide your feelings?
i really dont understand.
i have already met two people who knows what they want,
but they just keep asking the person they like to go with someone else.
doesnt anybody get what they want anymore?
where's the confidence?

week after week,
you'll start this,
by finding out things about me & use it as a reason not to talk to me.
why?
its starting to be something like a cycle.
every single week it has to be this way.
i really dont know what you want anymore.
& it was like hours since i last saw you,
& you're like that again.
what happened to everything that you told me?
when you hugged me,
all the kisses?
doesnt it mean anything to you at all?
is it fun to torture me this way?
tell me you love me then make me wait for the next "i love you"??
kiss me then keep me away?
hug me then push me aside?
use me then throw me?
bored then leave me by myself?
regret then take me back?
i want you to know,
that i have feelings too.

Feels like our love's intertwine.

2008-06-27T16:01:00.004+08:00

you're going to work already.
you're gonna have so much fun.
you know that im gna think of you right?
:D

i haven had lunch yet.
totally dont feel like eating anything.
its normal.
for one week like that already.

i miss you, you know?
i wont forget what you said yesterday.
and i know what you mean.
dont worry about me.
im happy with things as it is now.
just make sure that you'll get through the day safely,
as long as my day ends with me talking to you on the phone,
hearing your voice,
everything will be fine.
just hearing about your day,
about everything,
i'll be happy.
okay?

take time to forgive yourself.
why be so hard on yourself?
you make mistakes,
just like anyone else.
give yourself time.
im sure you'll know what to do again(:

you just said smth to me,
that hasn't been said in such a long time.
i really am having the highest of all high right now.
whoever curse me also im okay with it.
haha(:
have fun at work.
♥

they can never have yesterday.

2008-06-26T22:22:00.004+08:00

i really love it when you talk to me(:
i can go mad,
whenever i think of you.
do you actually intend to make me feel this way?
im gonna miss you so much whenever you're busy doing your stuff.
and i just wanna let you know,
that when you were not thinking of me,
i was thinking of you.
missing you like there's no tomorrow.
wondering if i'll see you soon.
and if you are happy,
whether you ate already.
or if you had enough sleep.
its just never ending thoughts that i have of you.
only you.
(:

I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side (ooh yeah)

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it i'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday

You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)

I know i'll see you again i'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on you face
But they can't take yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (no no)
They can take the music that we'll never play (they can take the music that we'll never play)
All the broken dreams (oh, my broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (oh oh oh)
They can take the future that we'll never know (we'll never know)
They can take the places that we said we would go (huh oh oh)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
But i was so wrong
Now i can, believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (ooh ooh)
They can take the music that we'll never play (no)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (yesterday)
They can take the future that we'll never know (yeah ah)
They can take the places that we said we would go (that we said we would go)
All the broken dreams (all our broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (they can never hace yesterday)

Ooooh...
(All the broken dreams take everything)
But they can never have yesterday

love you in slow motion

2008-06-26T14:50:00.004+08:00

okay,
it seems that today you dont feel like replying my msgs.
maybe you're trying to make me angry,
but i wont be angry one la.
HAHA.
wth.
i guess your plan kinda spoiled when you msged me at 11.
you said, "arent you angry that i never reply you?"
then when i replied,
"no, why should i be angry? HAHA."
&then you totally never reply again.
ohwell.
im still waiting.
cos i know that you need your space.
im not gonna intrude your space.
we're not together anyway.
HAHAHA.

but there's just things i feel deep inside.
and im gna keep it in there for now.
i wont let it affect me,
i wont let it show.
because im gonna be happy as long as you are.
i wont hate you, i'll never hate you.
you might just say that im lying or its just words,
but you know that i wont hate you.
thats why you are trying your best to make me hate you.
by not replying my msgs,
by ignoring me,
dont worry.
i'll never hate you.
never ever.

kiss me, love me, baby.

2008-06-25T17:57:00.016+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

NURUL SUHAIZA

BTE MANAN!!!!!

♥

chatting with hafi online now.
we are like talking about spanking ass.
and what we should use.
cane? paddle? whip?
HAHAHA.
what else can i do?
maple's like dc-ed again.
omg hope there's no rollback.
i'll totally scream.

okay.
its SIX O'CLOCK.
and its been two hours since he started work.
im waiting for his msg.
HURRY MSG ME K!?
gosh, im jealous.
i wish i could go work too now.
but wtf.
olevels.
its like my whole life now.
well, it IS.
okay, anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
must go out when your first paycheck comes ah!
i dont CARE.
HAHAHAHA.
im gna spend spend spend your MONEY!!!!
we must go eat k.
dont ignore me when you become a richfuck ah!
(:

I probably shouldn't say this, but at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it, it's not possible for me
Not to care

And now we're standin' in the rain,
But nothing's ever gonna change until you're here
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you, Oh, you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure,
You love me, you like her,
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends they're jerks,
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing, I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward, and it's silent,
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure,
You love me, you like her,
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends they're jerks,
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing, I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take to long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's,
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized,
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine, when we're interwined, everything's alright
I wanna be, with the one I know
And the seventh thing, I like the most that you do
You make me love you

YOU do(:

moving mountains

2008-06-24T15:46:00.003+08:00

its strange.
just super strange.
i never really expect things to be like this.
its not bad,
i mean,
its hard to explain(:
but the situation that we're in,
its so normal.
its like as if,
nothing happened, isnt it?
well,
its okay.
we dont have to be together to be happpy like this.
cos right now,
im already so happy.
you may think im lying,
im not laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
im happy, if you are.
remember?
the talks on the phone we had,
i'll never forget.
what we had was so special.

no matter how mean you say you are to me,
i'll never go.
im here to stay.

you sleep like a log.

2008-06-23T21:04:00.004+08:00

okay.
what the hell.
i finally get to use the internet
&someone is SLEEPING.
pig.
omg!!
i waited the whole afternoon okay for my com to be alright.
then talk to you until you fell asleep.
(seriously am i thaaaaaaaaaat boring?! HAHA.)
waited on the phone for one hour for you to wake up,
&you still couldnt wake up, no matter how much I SCREAMED!!!!!
hahahaa.
walau.
wake up, wake up, wake up, WAKE UP!!!!!
i guesss you fell asleep cos you didnt sleep much ytd.
BUT IM LIKE STILL OFFENDED OKAY!?
okay, anyway, i wonder what can wake you up.
earthquake or any natural disasters that happen,
you'll still be fast asleep.
no sense of urgency ehhhhhhhhhh.
ARGH.
and its like already 9pm now?
and your still sleeping.
great,
more waiting for me,
and a slap on your face for you.
:D

you are my bestestestestestsetetstettsestetet.

2008-06-23T21:03:00.002+08:00

you're awake already.
poor thing.
you just now got headache,
HAHA.
okay la okay.
i'll buy the bread and get it for you okay.
dont worry k.
HAHAHA.
better take care of yourself la k.
eat properly, sleep more hours for instance,
& dont game too much.
seriously.
you one day sleep so little hours
& look what happen,
you got headache.
somemore almost vomit.
take care k.
<3

you wanna be free, so im letting you fly.

2008-06-22T15:07:00.006+08:00

i guess, i only had one week.
& i had to make you angry yesterday.
hah.
what am i even talking about!?
its wasnt even anything right?
i was just something you wanted to keep by your side.
here i was trying my best to try again.
make you feel NOT tired.
care for you, treasure you.
but its still isnt enough right.
whatever i do wont ever be enough.
but its okay though.
i understand.
now we need to study.
you for your n's, me, o's.
and you need to do your thing,
and me, mine.
whatever you msg me ytd,
i will remember.
you said that you'd come back.
then we'll see.
i can wait.

we talked about fate yesterday remember?
who's fate? what is fate? do you believe in fate?
i do.
maybe we just have to rely on fate now.

im just thankful for the chance to see you over this last week of the hoildays.
at least i felt better than before when you just left suddenly,
and didnt allow me to see or talk to you at all.
it was harsh and brutally pain to me.
and for 3 weeks, i was barely hanging on.
but after your trip to thailand,
im glad i got to see you.
i'll never forget what we had.
cos i know its special.
maybe along the way, you just lost your feelings for me.
something went wrong and it cannot be mended anymore.
but for me, i loved you endlessly.
and it just wasnt enough.
because after all that we had,
you still left.

but its okay.
somehow, i know deep down,
that you will always be a part of me.
i cant stop you from doing what you want.
study hard, i know you can do it.
hope that we'll see each other again.

ytd was the 21st.
it would be six months if we were still.

blairbear.

2008-06-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

today was an early day for me.
it was just like before.
im happy,
HAHAHA.
now im going to play maple.
for fun.

i love it when you kissed me on my head today.
iloveyouuouououououou.

you'll always be my baby!

2008-06-19T15:15:00.008+08:00

im pouring out my feelings here.
im not going to let go of you anymore.
no one will interfere me and you.
no one will tell me what im going to do.
im all about you and im staying this way.
im not going to be with anyone else.
i know that i love you more than anything else.
i will only have you in my heart.

read my 21 reasons why i love you,
and you'll always know why.
i'll never forget valentine's day '08.
i gave you your present.
im glad you liked it cos i loved everything that you gave me.
our two rings, i'll never lose it.
i'll keep it close to my heart.
the times we spent together,
will be etched in my heart,
now and forever.

We were as one,
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause i know in my heart,
Our love will never die, no.
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely.
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

&no matter how bad he tries to hurt and push her away,
she keeps running and finding her way back to him.

my love, it had never left me.

2008-06-18T13:36:00.009+08:00

im like at home so early.
i totally didnt go to school today.
just damn lazy.
thats not a very good attitude.
like how the hell am i gonna pass my o's this way?
oh well.
but i was really happy today.
went to watch the hulk.
omggg. nice movie.
had so much fun in the cinema.
i wasnt embarressed at all.
but we were very criticizing.
we like say this actor and that actor.
and laughed like no tmr.
hahaha.
dont apologize.
i wanted to give you a good day.
i did have fun, like never before.
when you spend the day with me,
then i realised how much i missed you.

we had fun like we used to.
and you made me laugh like crazy.
i'll never forget today, you know?

you made me so happy.
i love you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------- edit.
okay.
i got so freaked out just now for two hours.
guess thats my weakness.
you are my weakness.
oh gosh.

i know that we're through.
but i just want to let you know.
that i've always loved you.
when we talked since monday,
i cant seem to get you out of my mind.
you made me laugh again like the first time.
you may think whatever,
you may break my heart again.
but i want to let you know,
that i will always be in love with you.
call me stupid, call me blind.
ive fallen deep and still falling.
you make me feel what i want to feel.
and i dont want to be afraid.
if you can make my heart beat faster,
just by me thinking of you,
how can i ever let go?

uoy evol i.

edwestwick-ed.

2008-06-15T17:19:00.004+08:00

okay!
been damn long since i last blogged.
guess i was just lazy.
HAHAHA.
just thought i'd drop by with a few lines.
need to shop badly):

If you’re on your way,
I’m not gonna write you to stay.
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don’t want it for a minute.

2007-12-10T15:34:00.000+08:00

You should know it's true.
Just now,
the part about my love for you,
& how my hearts about to burst,
Into a thousand pieces.
So, it must be true.
And they'll believe us too soon.
Baby, it's fact,
Our love is true.
The way black is black,
And blue is just blue.
My love is true,
It's a matter of fact.
Oh, and you love me too.
It's a simple as that.
Baby, our love is true.
❤

2007-12-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

fifthmonth.
071207.

2007-12-05T14:38:00.000+08:00

my 16th birthday,
haha.
one i'll never ever forget.
(:

2007-10-19T17:05:00.001+08:00

guess i'll never get the chance to see you again.

2007-09-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

when did his body get SO HOT!!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!
omg. :B
my eyes burn.
definately a ladies' choice.
TOTALLY HOTTTTTTTTTT.
ms hudgens, you are so lucky.
~~i still rmb that i had an obsession with his nipples in HSM.~~
i was supposed to watch hairspray.
but i had to sacrifice ):
i watched ratatouille instead,
and its such a nice show!!!
little chef :B

more of mr efron :B
sorry. found all this shots of him HOT.

isnt this shot hot?
i LOVE his black hair.

I LOVE HIS BLACK HAIR!!!! :B

okay.
im sure that all this shots had vanessa with him.
i mean, i can see her hands/arms.
HAHA.
but she got cut off.
nasty fan girls.
HAHAHAHA.
im gonna enjoy his abs now.
oh god. look at that line at his hips!!!

*FAINTS*.

Send My Love To The Dancefloor.

2007-08-20T18:42:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OVER!!
okay.
but the real thing is coming up :\
N LEVEL!!!!!!!
next year still got O's.
so SAD!

today,
me, aida and zara pon accounts.
for fun.
hahahahhahaha.
so stupid.
still kena caught.
OHWELL.
but didnt get punished cos when miss tan talked to us,
she laughed instead of scolding us.
dunno whats so funny?!

anyway, alili and lili didnt come today.
so only had me aida jan zara and jess during recess.
after recess,
felt sleepy during lit.
damn boring. kena do essay.
but i didnt finish it.
then maths,
i just slept.
HAHAHAHAH.
:B

got back my english essay today.
18/30.
the teacher's comments were so hilarious.
she couldnt make out my handwriting.
was it that bad?!?
she couldnt differentiate my Hs and Ns.
and many more.
and she said it will be considered as spelling errors.
FUCK OFF.
correct spelling, yes?

okay. i so need to go.
COBRA STARSHIP ROCKS! :B
after so long i managed to get their song.
& I LOVE IT (:
♥

2007-08-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

off to meet jessie at starbucks!
captivity wasnt very nice):

psychoglam.

2007-08-15T11:52:00.000+08:00

currently, very sleepy and bored.
going to watch a fake dvd movie soon.
haha. Captivity.
it looks so freakyyyyy.
and im watching it alone.
OMG.
haha.
but the actress, elisha cuthbert pretty eh!

today's physics was shit.
mostly what i was worried for,
didnt come out.

HAHA!
sean kingston's beatiful girls just on MTV.
i think he's so cute and chubby.
:B

tmr's maths 2.
i need my life back.
im so bored and lost at home.
need shopping again.
hoping to get a new phone sooooooooooon.

gave Zara her present today!
so happy that she liked it. :B
it was a custom-made necklace from perlini's.
a cupid and a heart.
like almost one week after her birthday.
(:

was supposed to go study at ms.
but i must study at home for tmr.
its SUCKS!

okayyyyyyyyyyy,
i need to start watching the movie.
before i fall asleep.
♥

2007-08-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with this show.
and i fell in love.

went shopping yesterday!
wooo.
finally bought all that i wanted.
(:

this whole week is stress!
prelims, babeh.
must do well.

ohmygod.
i am going nuts.
my mother is yakking awayyyyyyyyyyy.
blahbalhlahlalhdklag.
driving me CRAZY!
okay.
i miss you, boy.
♥

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine.

sing songggggg!

2007-08-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

See here's the thing

We have to take our clothes off, SO SEXY!
We have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Oh no

Excuse me miss
I couldn't help but to notice how alone you are
I dig the attitude and how you're acting like you own the bar
Got me flashing keys and I don't even own a car
Like you ain't feeling my charm, because I know you are
I'm trying to see how your lips feel
Oh I'm sorry, my name is Travee and I'm pretty much a big deal
Oh, you've never heard of me
That sounds absurd to me
The way you stole my attention was flat out burglary
What do you say let's exit stage left so me and you can
Possibly reconvene and play some naked peekaboo
Cause after all the blouse you're wearing is kinda see through
And it's obvious I'm heading wherever you're leading me too
Such an angel with a devilish angle
And quite the certified sweet talker
And you're buying every line of it girl
And I don't really blame you
If I was in your shoes I'd probably do the same too

We have to take our clothes off, SO SEXY!
We have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Oh no

Now here's another bar, I'm coming for the slow gunners
Put your helmets on and take a seat on the short bus
Next stop, right around the corner from your momma live
No turning back so you better buckle up
Shit, don't be concerned with mine
I feel like a Speak and Spell way I got you learning my lines
Fine, pull the string, replay that shit
I change my name to "did he really just say that shit?"
Yep
I'll take a mile if you let me
Six-five, two hundred plus and so sexy
My legs going up for keeping my phone on vibrate
To hide the fact your girlfriend keeps textin' me
And I've been trying to never mind it man
But every time I get a new number, she finds it damn
And you thought you had it sewn up
Until right around amazing o'clock when I showed up

We have to take our clothes off, SO SEXY!
We have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Oh no

Got chicks, all hot chicks
And you rock chicks, datin' hip hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks
Got chicks, all hot chicks
And you rock chicks, datin' hip hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks

Good grief girl, you're giving me goosebumps
Standing there in your underwear and new pumps
It's like the more time we waste and less time I get to taste you
Honestly I could easily replace you
It's not a scam girl
That's how I am girl
Peter Pan, I'm a sucka for smucka's jam girl
It's clear I'm only here for good clean fun
Shut up and kiss me like the antidotes under my tongue
Whoa

We have to take our clothes off
And we have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Oh no
We have to take our clothes off
And we have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Oh no

Got chicks, all hot chicks
And you rock chicks, datin' hip hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks
Got chicks, all hot chicks
And you rock chicks, datin' hip hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks

cinderella.

2007-07-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

watched harry potter on wednesday!
everything was hot but so many stuff was cut out of the movie!!!
ugh.

im pms-ing.
sigh.
i had four days of exams straight,
& there's so many tests and exams coming still!
wtffffffffff.
im gonna die.

i swear i cant stop thinking of what you said.

2007-07-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it okay,
I miss you.

i cheated myself like i know i would.

2007-07-04T14:58:00.001+08:00

did i do something wrong to make you feel so right?
must i make you happy even when im not?
you will never change.

WHOOPs.
looks like my blog is dead.
but im so lazy/busy to update.
and exams are coming.
and im studying like shit.
sigh.
im so confused right now.
FUCK.

2007-06-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

this girlie is a cutieeee.

I NEVER GO SCHOOL TODAY!
ok bye.

4/2 class tee(:

2007-06-12T18:04:00.000+08:00

4/2 ppl!
class tee design is ready!

haha.
LIKE FINALLY RIGHT.

and well,
i cant post the design here for copyright reasons.
but just msg me or tag me here or contact me in any way,
if you wanna see the design.
(the design might change due to popularity too.)
you can also contact HAFI and AIDA online,
because they have the design too.
the tee might cost $8.
but if you all want to have collar and all,
might cost a little bit more(:
and please dont be very fussy(:
be generous okay?(:

will update all about it soon.
ok?
♥ you all.

The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday.

umbrellafireworks.

2007-06-08T18:28:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa ytd with brother and friends(:
haha.
much fun.
im a tanner now.
:D

the wierdest thing i thought about in the water was:
does a lot of ppl pee in the water?
god.

the wierdest thing i said in the water:
kor, your sand got hair. -_-

and we saw a rainbow tooo(:
then went to the rocks,
so annoying!
i got scratched there.
pain):

after a few hours playing in the water,
got changed and then went for the skyride and luge!!!
wooo.
i love luge-ing now.
we had a one for one for just 9 bucks.
cos it was some kind of happy hour.
so we had two rides!
the staff at the luge were damn funny!
haha.
i loved the skyride.
we saw the sunset!
hahaa. so nice luhhh.

then had dinner at sakae,
then went to bikini bar for a drink.
my bro's friend had this drink called sex on the beach.
it tasted nice la!
after that,
headed to raffles city, starbucks.
had java chip and warm chocolate cake!
haha.
omg. so nice to stay out late at night.
took mrt to tena merah and walked home.
haha.
i wanna go sentosa again!!!
& i'll bring my own cam this time.
will post pics soon.
♥

lsa.

2007-06-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes
things
dont
turn
out
the
way
you
want
them
to
be.
but
im
glad
that
someone
is
there
to
make
all
things
better.
like
YOU.
♥

13/07

2007-06-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

that's hot.

manicuresheeps.

2007-06-01T15:32:00.001+08:00

watched pirates on wednesday.
johnnny HOTTT.
right this moment,
im fairly annoyed.
basically,
i keep sneezing,
and im just annoyed.
anyway.
ytd night,
i helped my bro with his project model till 1 am!
haha.
we built seats that looked like spaceships,

and frenchfries too.
oops,
okay i dont have the frenchfries one.
HAHA.
& its all so tiny.
had to use the good ol' tweezers to pick up pieces!
well,
i did a great job!
so i believe my reward is coming.
:D
went shopping ytd too.
only bought earrings from diva
because nothing else was worth buying.
ahwell.
im aiming for the mango jeans though!
HAHA.
well,
im off to watch miami ink now.
amijames♥

its funny to wake up everyday,
thinking of you.
and to end the day,
dreaming of you.
knowing that by loving you.
♥

505

2007-05-29T10:41:00.000+08:00

But I crumble completely when you cry.
It seems like once again,
you've had to greet me with goodbye.

2007-05-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

what a cool vid. (:

just want you to know, that i got sexy ladies. OHHH(:

2007-05-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

today,
i went to parkway!
had lunch at pastamania with jess and aida.
then cindial did my hair.
haha.
she took quite long to do,
but damn funny!
but it turned out quite good!(:

alright.
i shall decribe how i feel now.
gkrngzsjkgnlzkfmng zlk;fjnmvz;oirmnklvmZkfnvOIdknv.
and this is a plus.

IM FUCKING PISSED OFF!
ANYWAY,
I DONT CARE IF YOU WANNA THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY
OVER SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE THAT IS YOU LIFE.
ALL I KNOW THAT IS OUR FRIENDSHIP IS OVER.
IF YOU SAY YOU ARE STUPID.
THEN YOU ARE.
I KNOW WHATEVER I SAY DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE.
SO YOU CAN STUFF MY WORDS UP YOUR FUCKING ASS.
WHY ASK ME FOR HELP WHEN IN THE END YOU DONT WANT
TO TELL ME ANYTHING?
DONT START IN THE FIRST PLACE LA! ASSHOLE!
PPL HERE TRYING TO HELP YOU & THEN YOU PUSH ME AWAY!
DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL?
OH FUCK, WHATEVER.
DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.
I DONT CARE ANYMORE.
AND I DONT WANNA TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW.

to the love, we never had.

2007-05-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

today school was slow.
damn boring.
sick of it.

after school,
went to eat with aida& jesss.
we had so much fun!
talktalktalk,
laughlaughlaugh.
screamscreamscream.
so much nonsence la!
my prat flew.
HAHAHA.
&time passed real quick eh!
then we made our way home.

just talked to aida on the phone.
she actually forgot i was on the line.
so i just stoned.
~~what a heartwrenching conversation.~~

change of email, my darlings!

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

addmekay!
burningdownneverland@hotmail.com

okay.
i think you get it.
LOVE, gwennnnnn :DDDDDDDDD

pepperundernails.

2007-05-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

yay!
im working again sooooooon.
i must get active or i'll get fat
and get stuck on a couch or something.
but im really lazy these days.
and i get sick easily too.
fkn weather.
hotcoldhotcold.
then i start getting high fevers!
i realised that i had a lot of blackpeppercrab during the weekend.
two days in a row!
rah.
well,
last week of school!
wooooo.
i wanna watch pirates and shrek 3!!!!

2007-05-15T18:36:00.001+08:00

sigh.

santamaria.

2007-05-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
FOR NOW.

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
like finally!

im going to cut my hair.
hopefully will turn out nice :D

for some reason,
my stomach's growling like really loud.
maybe there's a thunderstorm in there.
HA.(:

2007-05-09T12:59:00.000+08:00

I HATE EXAMS!
i feel like banging my head on all four walls.
ugh.
today's maths paper SUCKED!
like fucking hell!
sometimes i think exams are stupid.
ITS GOING TO RAIN!
like finally.
its so fucking hot till i was like sweating when doing accounts?!
geez. what wierd weather.
anyway,
hope to get my job on saturday
okay. not MY but THE JOB.
I WANT IT!!!!!
hahaha.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
lightning and thunder! thunder and lightning!
okay.
whatever.
back to my boring afternoon.

wipe that smile off your fucking face.

2007-05-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

LILI!
you're so pretttyyyyy(:

finally,
the weekend is here!
rest, rest, rest(:
maths SUCKED!
i didnt do two questions
and i hope it doesnt cost me my life.
sniff.

after the paper,
me, lili, zara and aida went to parkway!
zara and aida shopped like there was no tmr.
haha.
then i went to aida's nice house to visit her cats for awhile.
SO CUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee.
haha.
went home,
and then went out again,
cos aida wanted to go to tm.
then follow her buy stuff.

aida chew,
you're so random.
HAHA.

there's this friend i have.
and her english really sucks.
GUESS WHO(:

2007-05-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

hello(:
studied accounts with lili, aida, jan, zara & alili just now.
and it was actually fun!
ms tan treat us to pizza,
and we started feeling bad about how we treat her last time.
ohwell.
haha.
tmr's maths!
i cant wait for exams to be overrrr.
im sick of it alr.

but i know you did.

2007-04-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
examz start already.
annoying SHIT.
today's englesh1 and chenise1.
so tiring.
i wrote until my hand pain.
chenise, i threw away the pen.
HAHAHA.
my ear really hurt like shit laa.
im so stressed.
wait no.
im not. cos i can imagine all the express ppl.
SIGH.

after my chenise finished at 12,
i went home.
FUCKING EARLY LA.
then aida called me at 1plus,
and asked me if she could sleep at my house.
but she kinda just came and read mags.
haha.
we heard a small kitten making noise,
then we brought it to my house.
it was crying[as in MEOWING] and stuff.
and we tried to feed it milk,
but got rejected.
so, UGH.
i just brought it down again.
sad);
WHERE'S THE MOTHER!?

going out later!
woo.
hope the party's gonna be fun.

It was just how you looked in the light.

2007-04-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

hello.
im so annoying bored now.
my ear, back, body all are hurting so much.
i put tons of yokoyoko on myself, i smell like a chinese medicine shop.
thanks to the meds, my back's like on FIRE.
its horrible):
im listening to lonely september & it so sad.
the only happy thing that happened
is me finding my yellow star earrings
that i desperately thought i lost
and ~~me thinking about someone~~(:
exam's on monday.
i still dont have a reason.
and you dont have the time.

here's a story about greed i wrote on friday during english.
My parents have always been very "career-minded" and obviously, they wanted what was best for me. Everyday, they would always give me the usual "motivating" talk in the morning before I leave for school. As I walked to school, what they told me would usually leave me thinking about what I want to do about my future, this morning, however, it didn't. Something on the ground caught my eye. I gasped in delight as I took a closer look and realised that it was a crisp hundred dollar note. What I didn't know when I picked it up to keep it, was that someone's life depended on it. Now, all because of my greed, someone was left to die.

sigh.
it isnt very happy isnt it.

------------------------------------------------------------------------
just read mr lin's blog.
we miss him so, do we?
sigh.
so this is what he wrote that caught my eye(:

i.e in Singapore, I played tennis lots, and taught PE (oh gawd. bad memories), had a fricking good pay for a 20 year old, highly involved in church, and well, led a pretty high life for a 20 year old... So therefore, I spent more time at the mall, looking for nice clothes, dressing up, looking good, etcetera etcetera.

And now, things are just strangely different. Can't really put a finger on it. But things are pretty different now.

things ARE different):

she's the one.

2007-04-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

i pierced my ear once again!
today, it rained again.
this is going to be sucha boring post.
cos im not really in the mood to like blog.
fkn exams are fkn annnoying.
fuck la.
i hate feeling this way.

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own, oh

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight (one more chance tonight)

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not gettin' me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did.